A Private Decision

 In my egg freezing quest, a particular phrase keeps reappearing - “It’s a private decision.”  In general, I agree, but for some reason the word private nags at me.  Maybe it’s because as a kid I remember my friend’s mom say, “That’s our private family business, she doesn’t need to know.” 

As my thoughts simmer, I realize that I associate private with silent.  When I concentrate on silent, it leads me to the word fear.  My brain continues to process and I decipher the difference between the two words.  Private allows me to be selective with what and who I choose to share information.  Silent prevents me from discussing out of fear.

When I made the decision to freeze my eggs, I didn’t have the intention of telling anyone.  Mostly because I was worried about what people would think.  Don’t get me wrong, there are still days when I wrestle with discussing the topic openly, but I’m learning to release the fear.  I read something yesterday that struck me, “You are free when you are fearless.”  It was my reminder not to let fear coerce me into being silent.  Freedom comes from sharing experiences with others.    

Check out www.eggsurance.com.  It’s a growing community of “egg freezers” that provides information and support during the journey.