Freaking Out

I have a habit of freaking out about things I can't control.  It's not one of my better qualities, but I've been working on it.

A few years ago I started meditating.  When I'm dicisplined enough to meditate regularly, it's much easier to surrender the unknown. 

Sometimes when things around me are running smoothly, I get cocky and skip the daily meditations.  Big mistake. 

Meltdown

I’m having a major meltdown. I spoke with the pharmacy this morning to confirm the total cost of the fertility drugs. They said $2,300 dollars. Yes, you read that correctly - $2,300. Honestly, I expected it to be around $2,500, but I was hoping it would be $2,000. I also envisioned that I would have a little more time to come up with all the money. The drugs have to be paid for in full, all at once, by April 16th. I’m short $800. I was afraid this was going to happen. How and where am I going to get an additional $800 in the next two weeks?